It seems that when you are more aware you become more aware. Like of all the cars on the road, the ones that stand out are the ones just like mine. Or when you’re hoping to get married it seems like everyone else is getting married. Or getting married for the second time.
When you’re struggling with infertility it seems like all the pregnant women come out of the woodwork. Where were they before? All of a sudden they’re at the grocery store, at the movies, at the park. You go to the safety of your home but when you turn on the TV the ads are about pregnancy tests and diapers and baby toys. And even your favorite character just got pregnant! Now is also the time that your friend, your friend’s friend, and those people you don’t even really know like that yet they’re on your instagram decide to post a picture of their pregnancy test… or baby bump… or labor and delivery photo.
Everywhere you look, you see pregnant women. Reminders of what you are praying for but haven’t yet achieved. It makes you anxious. It makes you sad.
Someone will argue that no, there aren’t more pregnant ladies, there aren’t more Facebook announcements. You’re sensitivity for these things has increased. You aren’t really surrounded by pregnant women.
I actually am surrounded by pregnant women.
I am an ObGyn. An infertile ObGyn.
These are my stories.
